lol... i stop smking for like 9 days le... its such a feat man... hahahaaa.. xiao mei~~~ i wouldnt disappoint u again... i rememeber i break e promise but this time i will keep it no matter wat... =)...

today is such a "eventful day " ... literallly argued wit my mother over wat my cousins getting.... DEGREES, DIPOLMA... so... monthly minium $3000... so wat sia ... accountant wit ACCA standard... big huh... working at prestigous company so wat... get loss la... i getting so depressed until i wanna withdraw from my freaking course la...

i was like cant stop comparing... then my mum say why cannot talk huh... cannot talk bout someone else kids is it... then i replied : sure why not... if tat person can stand it for me is SHIT la... i cant stand people comparing me wit other one else... its like crap la... each got each individual standard la...

let me live wat i wan now la... cause u will never know wat will jappen to u tomolo la... u may be living n breathing now... but e next instant u r dead la... DEAD u know... so why wanna controlled my life until like tat... i literally hate my life la.. everything isnt going my way la... my studies my personel life... everything is like goping downhill man... its way downhill u can never see e botttom...let me tell u man... it sucks really... sometimes i tell myself i m i freaking born into this pathetic world... SHIT u man... u know who i mean... the all "MIGHTY" asshole upstairs... beside i now m non-religious... neither christian nor buddhist.... i given up on all this shit... yes i dare say its shit ....

hhhahaaa... u may all see i happy go lucky now... dont be fool man... i may burst anytime soon.... so dont get tooo close to me or u will get hurt ... i m jus a no life asshole.... hahahha..... anyway even though my life sucks .. <>